Tuesday, March 15, 2005

s o r r y . . . . . . .

Had a close talk with a close friend today...
Something had been hitting my mind for a long time since a few months ago....

Somehow... I feel that I'm getting detatched from my closest friends...
Its so scary... the feeling is like getting colder and colder...
I noticed it since I started to succumb to depression...
I'm so scared...
I really dont want to lose my friends....

I love my friends... alot...

sigh... I should have known that depression would have get the better of me... why on earth did I fall into that bottomless pit...
sobz...

maybe I'm thinking too much...

I've lost my sensitivity... and with that.. I've lost almost all I got...

If there is anybody that I made upset or sad... I wanna say I'm really very sorry...
especially to Timothy, Jason, Sarah and Sonia...
You all took the bulk of my outbursts...

ICP is correct... the cycle of perceptions... I want to get out of this horrible cycle... Its starting to get really cold sometimes...



I will not succumb to depression again ok? I promise... I promise, cross my heart.........

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